a flashback...

how fast is life going.. it is not stopping for anything at all.. seems like i started college yesterday and today i have 3 youngsters working under me.. have i become that old.. whooo.. time runs fast and waits for none is true..
i went on the rewind mode to think what i have been doing and my rewind was just another fast forward for time.. i stepped into infy on the 9th of july 2007 precisely somewhere in between 9:30 and 10:00.. felt good.. felt like an achievement to work in such a big company.. there was this happiness that had no bounds.. i blinked my eyes and i got my first salary.. and another blink my seventh salary is all spent.. each and every blink makes my rewind go faster until i reached a point in 2008 feb.. from then on every moment had its own importance..
there were disasters there were disturbed times.. there was lot of happiness there was lot of sorrow.. but then life went smooth.. all of a sudden in life u hit a road block and that came after one year.. i was halted from my rampaging speed.. it was like a halt.. a ferrari going at 300 miles comes to halt in a seconds.. it was like that.. suddenly everyone around me made lot more sense.. i had lot of time.. lot of time to think of what, where, when went wrong.. but that was just not enough to get an answer.. fall after fall.. pain after pain.. and when i felt lost.. i got back some hope.. and i still am moving forward with that hope.. every step i took after that was very carefully measured one.. a slip and i knew the consequences.. life at times has this very canny ability to put a halt to a lot of things.. and that phase gave me time to think more about me.. be more with myself.. i started liking it.. i started living with myself.. i loved me more than anyone..
well priorities do change with time and now i am not sure whom to love me or ?????...
i would like to leave that question mark just like that.. a flashback and i see time has not waited for me.. time is so mean.. meaner than the bus drivers they at least wait for a couple of minutes..
take time to love yourself.. be with yourself.. learn what you want.. there is no point delaying this time never waits for anyone.. so it is better to do it now than later..